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So Long Summer(Trailer)
47' Documentary
2024 with Eunice Gao

After my university graduation, I came back to my hometown, meeting the once intimate cousins who are more like strangers to me. I observe their life and question their choices, with understanding, unsatisfaction, and confusion.

The memories of my childhood linger in my mind, stirring my uncertainties towards the future. I'm afraid I'm going to follow something like the set trajectory of life as a woman but if I don't follow it, Where should I go?

Cicadas scream in the summer and summer is always too long to give any answer.

Birds

16'22'' Documentary
2021

I was not familiar with my grandmother. I only thought of her when I was filming a documentary with a rural Christianity as its topic. At that time she was an elderly blurred figure.

I stayed with her for a whole week, working with her at sunrise and sunset, feeding dogs, chickens and pigs, digging bamboo shoots, going to church with her, and watching her pray devoutly.

It took me a long time to realize that what I was filming was not the so-called Chinese rural Christianity, but my grandmother, my mother's mother, who was silent, lonely, and full of love.

What is the period?

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Pain

Photography

2023 ​

To do something.....    2022

Birthday is a ritual in daily life.

 

In 2022 summer, I was waiting for this day, as a once-a-year spotlight in a rental room with less than five square meters in Hong Kong, waiting to get a year older.

 

Age, as a number, is a society's measure of personal worth. Today's China has no room for people over the age of 35 in the labor force, and I had about ten years of shelf life left. It was anxiety-provoking, so I decided to do something.

 

This is not like Hans Ulrich Obrist's do it or Miranda July's Learning to Love you more, where the artist sets the rules and lets others present. I have made a long to-do list and I will do it. The process of completing the list tried to answer the question for me —

 

How should people give themselves meaning?

1.To smoke 24 cigarettes all at once

Photo; Videos 97’33’’ without audio

 

Tobacco always appeared with my father, it was his only friend in his vulnerable moments.

 

When I smoked the last few of 24 cigarettes, my heart beat faster, as if I had been exposed to the sun. I fell asleep almost immediately when I finished.

 

No dreams.

2. To write letters to my mom without lies

letters

 

I didn't send any of them to her.

3. To draw graffitis on the street

Photos

 

I spent most of my time in Hong Kong lying in bed, staring at the incandescent lights on the ceiling until it turned black.

 

4. To burn out pages of the diary

Leftovers

 

My grandma was cremated in the spring. I used a yogurt bowl to burn the diary written in the days of her cremation, hoping that she would not read it.


 

5.To hide cards in the library

A Photo album

 

《Conduct of Users in the Library》

Smoking and games of any form are not permitted in the Library.

 


 

6. To find a job

Two A4 papers

 

China's unemployment rate for 16-24 stopped publishing after reaching a record high. I'm glad I'm about to get rid of the age of 24.

 

7. To talk with a tree

Audio, 24’38’’                              

 


 

8.To find 24 stars

Photo

 

Since I was a child, among the fair-skinned and cute children, I have always stood out because of my freckles. During my long growth, I was among the top three in the competition for the title of "ugly", and freckles were the best stain on my "beautiful career".

 


 

9. To draw tits of porns and compare with mine

5 sketches 20cm X 30cm

 

Breasts are two pieces of extra flesh that have been annoying since my puberty. They are the best physical evidence that I am "inferior” to men.

 

 But I am also the same as a man because I can get an orgasm whenever I see others’ breasts.

 

10. To learn dirty Cantonese vocabularies

Video,1’33’’, no audio

 

It’s shameful to be a Hong Kong resident but can’t speak Cantonese. People always tell me to learn the dirty words first, but I can't dare to speak and I can’t pronounce them correctly.

 

11. To have tattoo for the first time

Photo

 

The fortune teller said that one of my parents would die before me unless I recognized a stranger as my substitute parent. I couldn't accept this, so I got "Maman" on my back.

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Firstly exhibited @Ode to Ideas

Exhibition photo by Rafaelgraf_

White
Poetry Collections
2017

​​Zombie's Camera
Video Essay
2021

No Billing, No compromising

Streets Art

With Karlie ZHAO, Nickola Antolkovic, John Cheung

2021

​​Respect0730
Experimental, with VOV Project
2020

Not, or no longer desired
Photography
2021

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Hey heī rabbit

Hey heī rabbit studio is set by Scout XU MY and Eunice Gao. We believe in the power of reality and work together to use cameras to fight against lies and human bullshit.

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Scout XU MY

Scout XMY is a documentary filmmaker and artist based in Hong Kong and mainland China. She focuses on the archive of reality at this extraordinary time. One of the most important aspects of her artistic practice is the exploration of feminism and the relationship between reality and memories. She takes an active part in international documentary projects. Her past work Period(2020) is published in the Arrow Factory. She graduated from the International Journalism of Hong Kong Baptist University and the School of Creative Media, City University of Hong Kong.

EXPERIENCE

Curator:

The Waste Land - MFA Graduation and Student Show 2022

Producer/Field Producer:

Vice Aisa - Gen China Series; Arrow Factory - China Series...

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